Last Thursday, I received the news that I consider one of the most shattering. I had to be crossed out from DanceStream. Dance stream calls for training, it demandstime from its members. And so does TSC. The information just didnt sink in to my mind right away. It shocked me and the only thing I could do was nod. I wasnt sure of what to say, I wasnt even sure whether I was nodding because I agreed or because I had nothing else to do. Mrs S was wise enough to realize my confusion so she had to ask whether I understood her or not. Again, I nodded. Come Friday. The list of members was posted. Seeing that I wasnt on the old members list was just choking me. It was only then that I realized that i wouldnt be there for the rest of the year. for A YEAR. Yes, that didnt come to my mind when i was being informed. the list. it was REAL. I saw Kyle coming and told her what happened. and I couldnt hold my tears any longer. I just hugged her. I realized how important dancing has become to me. It isn't just because it was something that I like to do. I got to be really close to somebody because of it, my bestfriend Rox. I learned the value of discipline and responsibility in a different way. I was able to gather enough courage to commute in tric alone because of it. I was able to impart something and support my classmates through it. However, I have made the ultimate commitment of my high school, my commitment as part of the TSC. And I wouldnt give it up. Some say you cant have everything. There would come a time when you would have to CHOOSE one over the other. There would come a time when you would have to make sacrifices and endure the pain. But do we really have to choose if we are driven to pursue and go on? I think I am ready to struggle. I have armed myself with sheer determination. Maybe I should speak up. Maybe I should tell that I am ready to give up anything but not dancestream. Maybe I should start reading the novels for term papers, collecting data for research, finishing the proposals, advance reading the lessons. and then maybe I could stop using ym other than tsc and academic work. and then I would have time for TSC, academics and Dancestream. And then when I graduate, I would call it an achievement. Or maybe I should just congratulate the new members, applaud as a member of the audience, direct the group for their turn in events. maybe i would be in another SEG, exploring other skills that i probably have. Maybe I should call it a sacrifice. I shouldnt forget to thank Becca for encouraging me to speak up and giving me an idea on how to strengthen my point. She was a darling for inviting me to have lunch with them. I thank my bestfriends, classmates, batchmates, and TSC for bearing with me. Im sorry I had to burst. I surprised myself too. Thanks for the hug inen, pb, joy, abby :) and dude, you were the reason why i started to cry harder. haha I thank mox din, for cheering me up last night. salamat di ka nakakalimot. Joanne, thanks for the letter. :) I am not alone in this appeal, fyi: my partner's gonna be in this appeal too :) Nikki deserves to enjoy her last year too. :)
 | aww...its okay...God will show you the way :P who knows...this might bring you closer to "youknowwho" :D cheer up enemy! its life...it sucks...big time...but then again...there's an open window C: |
 | andrealogy wrote on Jun 23, '07, edited on Jun 23, '07  castey! come on. FIGHT FOR IT and you know what I mean. :P You can't just congratulate the NEW members.  oi becca I thank you a lot. haha of course I can. :P |
| no thanks. im just crushing him from afar. does that make sense? HAHA. ikaw lang yata kinikilig eh. haha |
 | castey.... FIGHT!! hahaha. pareho kami ng tingin ni becca. promise alam kong kaya mo pagsabayin 'yun... sino ba naman sila para sabihin kung hanggang saan ka lang or na hindi mo kaya ipagsabay 'yung tatlong 'yun?? :( pero alam mo kahit anong kahantungan (wow lalim) ng lahat.. lahat kami sinusuportahan ka and susuportahan ka sa mga gusto mo gawin.. *hug* |
 | go Andrea! Sayang naman yung Dancestream noh! :p pero ifever wag na..hmm..May UP Street pa sa coLLege! ;] yeahyeah! |
 | ANDREA! yeah, tama si greenbellybeans [hihi]. may upstreetdance club [if diliman] pa or up indayog [up manila]. :] last year na lang naman eh. kelangan with honors. tas tas. kelangan good grades so you can get into good colleges. :D pero, kung anu talaga yung gusto mo, and you know you can handle it, then. go. :) godbless my dear! |
 | castey FIGHT! kaya mo yan pagsabayin noh...
dapat hindi ka nila inalis... i protest! |
| andrealogy wrote on Jun 23, '07, edited on Jun 23, '07 castey FIGHT! kaya mo yan pagsabayin noh...
dapat hindi ka nila inalis... i protest! di, kasi theyre just after my sanity, health, theyre thinking of the pressure that i may face. :) siyempre ayaw naman nila na ma drain ako nang sobra diba. pero yun, i will stilll try to make an appeal. they still have the last say, and I trust their desicion :) and maki, THANK YOU :) |
 | Aww. I think sooner or later ma-appreciate mo din kung ba't ka tinanggal. Baka iniisip lang nila na big responsibility na masyado yung sa TSC. To lessen the burden.. Pero sa tingin ko kaya mo yan.. Sa mga nakita ko sayo dati nung sa TSC, alam ko kayang-kaya mo i-balance yun. But sometimes, you just have to make some sacrifices talaga. Focus on the brighter side! Do well in your acads! Valedictorian baybeh!
I miss you and Twinkle! :) |
 | dude! okay lang yan :) pde ka naman sumayaw sa harap ko anytime you want. hahaha! wait, hindi kaya kita pinaiyak. parehas kayo ng sinbe sakin ni auds. nanlalambing lang naman ako. wtf?! hahahaha! i love you dude! :) |
| dude! okay lang yan :) pde ka naman sumayaw sa harap ko anytime you want. hahaha! wait, hindi kaya kita pinaiyak. parehas kayo ng sinbe sakin ni auds. nanlalambing lang naman ako. wtf?! hahahaha! i love you dude! :) |
 | gorgeous, tandaan mo na hindi ka man dancestream, magaling ka pa rin sumayaw. yun yung HINDI nila kayang alisin. db? love you gorgeous. im always here.:) |
 | CASTEY! heeeey WE can do this! hehe im with you right?:) hehe mwah! i love you partner! |
 | my ghad! why o why, my dear?! what happened!! naguluhan ako dun a. wala na kong balita sa stc. dancestream is dancestream, and being part of it is already an achievement. diba? baka ikaw lang iniintindi nila. sinusunod lang nila yung alam nilang nakakabuti. :) pero, MAGALING ka, castey. tandaan mo yan. walang makakabago nun. fight, girl! :)) |
 | aww castey, im just crushed right now that i wasn't there to hug you or scream to the third floor something that would help you feel better. STC keeps taking away the things people work so hard for. you deserve nothing but the best, you spend your time and a whole lot of yourself just taking care of others. you have to talk to them babe coz im sure as hell if there's one person who can balance it all its YOU. i'll be praying for your happiness, as always. give me updates ok. *hug tight* |
| my ghad! why o why, my dear?! what happened!! naguluhan ako dun a. wala na kong balita sa stc. dancestream is dancestream, and being part of it is already an achievement. diba? baka ikaw lang iniintindi nila. sinusunod lang nila yung alam nilang nakakabuti. :) pero, MAGALING ka, castey. tandaan mo yan. walang makakabago nun. fight, girl! :)) onga naman, yun nga, syempre pressure, 4th yr, tsc, dancestream, medyo nakakadrain yun. Ana, THANK YOU. :) |
 | ahw castey :) it was my first time to see you cry like that.bsta girlfriend,i know that you can do this bcause you're strong.so FIGHT FIGHT! :D mwah! :) |
| andrealogy wrote on Jun 24, '07, edited on Jun 24, '07 ahw castey :) it was my first time to see you cry like that.bsta girlfriend,i know that you can do this bcause you're strong.so FIGHT FIGHT! :D mwah! :) girlfriend! :) IM SO SORRY I HAD TO CRY. akala ko kasi mpipigilan ko kaya nagpunta pako sa line formation eh. thank you thank you for the hug girlfriend! youre as supportive and kind as you always are :) love you abby |
 | roxanalex wrote on Jun 26, '07, edited on Jun 26, '07 I got to be really close to somebody because of it, my bestfriend Rox. aawww sugar! that's so nice to know. :D
my mom read this entry before i did. in fact, she was the one who told me about this. if she hadn't told me, i would have never read this. kasi sa sobrang daming ginagawa, nag-oonline nlng ako sa multiply para tingnan kung may replies and invitations, tapos offline na uli. i want you to know that i am one of the saddest and most disappointed people about your "removal" from Dance Stream. actually medyo nasira ung mood ko nung araw na nalaman ko un. maski itanong mo pa sa mga kaklase ko. sobrang bad trip tlga un. for me, being a Dance Stream member is not complete without you. nax! haha.. pero totoo talaga yan. mamimiss ko ung times na sabay tayong umuuwi.. tapos ung mga daddy natin na mga pasensyoso hinihintay tayong matapos. tapos pag naunang dumating ung dad ko before yours, hihintayin pa namin ung dad mo para di ka mag-isang maghihintay and vice versa. tapos sa inyo ako matutulog pag family day or bandfest. waaahhhh! sugar kaya ko sobrang na-enjoy ung pagiging Dance Stream member ko dahil sa'yo. knowing that my best friend is dancing with me during Dance Stream performances is simply the best. Being a part of Dance Stream would never be the same for me again. :'(
di bale, galingan nyo nlng nila vana sa bandfest! :D |
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